no way in hell. no way out of it. i've figured fo loong times...many whiles if you will.. it has nagged and bit. gnawed and clawed. and still no assuring conclusion i'm okay with. no way in hell that i can get out without conforming. no way that i'll be able to help it. and i don't want it. i don't want to give in. it's completely hopeless, isn't it?....... help.