i don't know how to help the people that need help. i mean i know how to..but my mama--knowing me better than i know myself--always told me not to help people that don't ask for help. but really mom, the people in dire need of helpage are NOT gonna go around asking for it. not that anything i would do or say could change anything, but just to have people wanting to help out must mean something. at least i would hope so. anyway, i don't know how to go about it....and it bugs me..because i should know how to help people. if i can't do simple helping out, how am i gonna help people who have cholera?

maybe they don't even need my help..and i should stop prying. am i prying? ....aww.....