it's new year's day a week from today. saturday. although, it's really friday night for us, behind time on the pacific coast. i was a lot more excited last week. i was going to do all these things, which i'm sure i'll attempt to do at the last minute on wednesday after my lab exam. but for right now, i just miss cousins. cousin in japan, cousin in england, cousins down south, and those farfetched cousins back in iran. the new year is all rejoice-full and all, but it's hard when i'm not surrounded by family. on tuesday night, there's chohorshanbe-soori (wednesday fire-ness thingie) down on durant. there will be bonfires, chanting and jumping over said bonfires. i shall try to go. haven't done that since i was seven.

in other news, i'm just disconcerted all the time. by everything. in the past, i've given some thought to what my dad said a couple years ago: that you either have to come up with a personality to do away with the world, or you must cope and compromise, sing with the world. i've tried singing, maybe i should stop frowning on the first option.